Well, I guess I am going to try to attempt to continue here, it’s hard because since I have lost my job, I don’t have that much computer time as I normally would when it comes to writing down my food…ok maybe that’s a cheap excuse, I have been coasting weight wise for the past few weeks month or so. I did gain about five pounds, but haven’t started smoking, and now have finally stopped mourning for my old job.
I went to an annual Yule gathering with my friends, and we ate Japanese which wasn’t bad, but there was stuff like chocolate and cookies. One of my friends though is weirdly losing weight without trying but she is also afraid that she has cancer…(she had some scares with her oncologist)….but also has thyroid issues, so maybe her thyroid has turned hyper (?) needless to say she is a little weirded out that she can eat what she wants but is still losing weight.
Me, well, knock on wood, my health has been ok…except that I can’t eat what I want and not gain weight. Though I have to say dinner was pretty small, mostly because Rebecca tried to make a small turkey in our convection oven…it didn’t look done exactly, which was a problem. She should have taken Andrews offer up and allowed him to barbecue it…hahahaha.
Oh yah my oven is broken. I’ve had some bad Feng Shui going on…or maybe all that stressing of mine has caused poltergeist activities to occur in my kitchen. But over the last few days I’ve had a leaking ceiling, broken oven, and a kitchen drawer cover fall off….all within the vicinity of a wind chime that I hung over the oven to bring me luck. I guess Feng Shui and me don’t jibe well enough together.
So I haven’t eaten any food yet, I’ll add it in as I go on today.
Breaki: bagel 6 points. Peanut Butter 1 tlb 2 points, honey 1 tsp .5 points, coffee 2 points (cream and sugar)
Mood: H.A.L.T – Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired-
The residual frustration of not getting my way during the holidays has been an ongoing theme. Remember, I am writing this down as I process my feelings rather than eating because of them. So I was frustrated I had no stove this holiday, no way to get a new one in time, also frustrated (peripherally) about my lack of having a job. But since I’m heading back to the wagon…I am also going to do things that will help me process my feelings in a creative way. One of course is writing in this blog, other things I can and will do today is walk my dog, and listen to Tibetan music and clean up. Since I’m on the run today, I’ll bring my notebook with me so I can jot my feelings down as I eat lunch.
Lunch-sandwich and diet coke 10 points
Snack latte 5 tart 6=11
total points so far-23 points
exercise 3 hours walking -9 points
mood while eating: fighting to keep from feeling bad about my situation….to stay positive, to think good thoughts about others around me. ..so, still the A in angry there.